Penny For Your Thoughts

 A song, to the tune of "We Will Rock You." Please begin your stomps and claps. MYYYYY BRAIN IS A NOODLE. (clap, stomp stomp clap) MYYYYY BRAIN IS A NOODLE. (clap, stomp stomp clap) GUESS WHAT IT'S FINALS  WOW I STILL HATE IT WHY IS MY LIFE ACADEMIC VALIDATION SMEARING MUD ON MY FACE BRAIN GONE, A DISGRACE WOW MY PLAYLIST IS ALL OVER THE PLACE  SINGIN MYYYYY BRAIN IS A NOODLE. MYYYYY BRAIN IS A NOODLE.  Stop and smell the roses. They're quite lovely, don't you think? -Emma Lancaster

May I tell you a story? Are you willing to engage in an eloquent dialogue with me? Could I ask a question? I would like satisfaction. This may seem unexpected, but in reality, it is not. I am finally at a point where I am able to discuss things with you. Are you willing to respectfully and maturely listen to my explanations? Did you know I used to write a lot of letters? Do you know how deeply the human person can feel pain? Do you know what I felt after us? Why did you ever think it was okay? It's not easy. I'm sorry it's not easy. -Emma Lancaster

 I miss being a kid. Kids don't know that they're being manipulated to eventually be thrown back into the system that their parents find stability in. It's a little sick, don't you think? My Grammarly emotions bubble is saying that this post is "disapproving." Shut up Grammarly. We all disapprove of modern society a little bit. Don't take it out on my blog post.  By the time a kid is maybe 16, they get a job. They want to know why some weird government organization is taking their paycheck. They want to know why the ACT or SAT matters.  Surprise! Remember how you always wanted to be 16 when you were little? It's not the coolest thing in the whole wide world everrrrrrrrrrrrr.  I'm sorry that society sucks. -Emma Lancaster

 I believe that there is something to be said about the topic of renewal. You can choose when you want to start over. Stop waiting for someone to tell you. They won't. It's up to you to choose when you want to renew your life. Stop looking for a sign. There is no sign. Don't take this post as a sign.  Just do what you want to do without universal affirmations from every single person you've ever met. As sad and blunt as this may seem, they probably do not care.  Pick your renewal. Be your own affirmation.  You don't have the time to wait for it. -Emma Lancaster

 I feel guilty for taking five minutes to write this blog post. I feel guilty about watching TV for twenty minutes just to see what would happen. I feel guilty for taking thirty minutes to check up on someone earlier today. I feel guilty for crying because that means I'm taking time for myself. I feel guilty because there are so many other things I have to do. How could I be so selfish as to give myself time to feel emotions? I have work to do. I have more work to do. That's enough personal time. Three minutes to write this. My work needs the other two. -Emma Lancaster

 Dear you, Here is what you should be. Composed Accomplished Ready Excelling Good Kind Welcoming Ahead Selfless Experienced Graceful Intelligent Prepared Solid Okay. Oh, you don't want to be? What do you want to be instead? Broken Crying Selfish Overwhelmed Upset Messy Unbalanced Lonely Unsettled Shaky Scared Exhausted Anxious Accepted I want to be okay with not being okay.  I can't be okay with not being okay. -Emma Lancaster

 Why do people always try to one-up each other's suffering? Just to show one extreme example to get the point across: Person 1: I left work because I was feeling sick today. Person 2: Oh really? I'm shitting my pants on my death bed as we speak.  That's just an extreme, but you get what I mean. Trying to talk about our feelings can be harder than it needs to be because other people don't listen. They "relate." Stop "relating." It's not helpful. Just listen. It's actually much easier to listen than it is to "relate." Stop downplaying the feelings of others. It's a jerk move. Be cooler. -Emma Lancaster