Penny For Your Thoughts

 Here is to my roaring 20s, to the mistakes that I will make, to the lessons that I will learn, to the people I will love, to the sunsets I will watch, to the life that I will live, and to the life that I will build. Here is to my roaring 20s, to the years that will fall in this decade, to the months that will be spent with love, to the days that will be filled with joy, to the hours that I will pass, to the minutes that I will wish to last forever, to the seconds that I will soak into memory. Here is to my roaring 20s, to the years that will change my life, to the decade that was my childhood dream, to the present moment on the brink of something wonderful. Today, I am 20. What a fantastic thing to be. -Emma Lancaster

 I was listening to a song that made me think of him, when all of a sudden, there was a shooting star.  Goodbyes are always hard to say, even when they're goodbyes that have a "see you later" attached to them. Then, when I was thinking of him again, there was a second shooting star. He's one of the hardest goodbyes I've ever had to say, and I cried three times on the drive home. Then, when I was being a daydreamer and missing him and driving all at the same time, there was a third shooting star.  The universe has a funny way of telling you that it's going to be okay. The next song that played was All Of The Stars by Ed Sheeran. "I saw a shooting star and I thought of you." -Emma Lancaster

 Dear little love, You are three weeks old today. What a beautiful little life you are. This world is big, little bird, and it will be all yours.  You will fly all your life. I will be so lucky to watch you in the sky. Sleep sound through the night, I will always hold you tight. You are blessed by Heaven, You are a little light. -Emma Lancaster

 I sometimes think about what would have happened  if I had never found out that he  wasn't in love with me. If he had gotten away with cheating, how long would he have hidden it from me? Would I know, even today? How would my heart have hurt differently? But then I think about who I was, who I am, where I am, where I will go, what I was, and what I will be next, and I refuse to think for a second longer about the love that was too weak to hold water. -Emma Lancaster

 And oh, he is fun. He is serious when necessary, and he is serious about me. But he is fun.  He skips down the sidewalks with me. He dances to Taylor Swift. He likes otters. He keeps a drawing of a dinosaur in his pocket when he goes to work. I'm having the adventure of a lifetime. The smile never fades. -Emma Lancaster

 Recently, I've learned that there are a million and one ways to say "I love you" without ever uttering those three words. How was your day? What was something that made you smile today? I was thinking of you. I got you flowers. Do you want a hug? I'll be there in two minutes. Do you want a ride so you don't have to walk? You need to rest. Let me carry that for you. Did you eat breakfast this morning? Will you come have dinner with me? My mom wanted me to tell you that she says hello. Call me, without hesitation, anytime you need me. I just like hearing your voice. You're beautiful.  This song reminded me of you. I like it when you wear my sweatshirt.  I know you can take care of yourself, but let me help you. You're on my priority list. Being busy doesn't mean I don't think about you all the time. Let me walk you home, it's dark outside. Drive safely. Let's go on an adventure together. I'd love to teach you how to shoot a basketball. A

 He told me I’m a problematic person, Without a single doubt.  But,  He also told me,  Not having me  (A problematic person) Would be a much bigger problem  Than having me here to stay.  -Emma Lancaster

 I didn't realize how right I was about the beauty of slow love. I almost let him go. Six months is a long time. I almost gave up. But, there was a voice. It was the only voice  that could break through the silence, a voice that said "Love him." Okay. I will love him every day. -Emma Lancaster

 He makes me crazy. He drives me up a wall. He gets on my nerves. He makes me laugh. He knows when I need a smile. He looks at me differently than everyone else. He takes time to listen. He takes time to share. He takes time to breathe. He tells me to go to sleep at night. He tells me I should drink water. He tells me I drive him crazy too. I told him that I like to keep people on their toes. He told me his heels hadn't hit the ground since meeting me. -Emma Lancaster