Too Weak to Hold Water

 I sometimes think about what would have happened 

if I had never found out that he 

wasn't in love with me.

If he had gotten away with cheating,

how long would he have hidden it from me?

Would I know,

even today?

How would my heart have hurt

differently?

But then I think about

who I was,

who I am,

where I am,

where I will go,

what I was,

and what I will be next,

and I refuse to think for a second longer about the love that was too weak to hold water.

-Emma Lancaster