Penny For Your Thoughts

 Hasty to burn, quick to regret. All she has now is herself. He left. -Emma Lancaster

 And I sit by the window every night Waiting for you to drive by Because if you drive by I know you're home safe Though it's not my problem I need you at home base Because there was one night I called and I called And you didn't pick up And I was scared  That you would fall. -Emma Lancaster

 I want to write for myself. All I have ever wanted to do is write for myself. I have a lot of stories to tell in a lot of different ways and all I have ever wanted was to write for myself.  I am so sick of writing for other people and writing what other people ask me to write.  That's why I have this blog. This is for me. -Emma Lancaster

 I am ready to burn everything to the ground. Here is what I want to say: I never questioned your motives or assumed that you wouldn't treat her well. I simply asked that you treat her well because you did not treat ME well. You used me. You used me and told me that being with me made you feel sick. I made you sick. You left me with a hope that you never should have left me with. You turned my world inside out, you made me feel unique and unforgettable, and made me feel like everything that I needed. You made me feel like I was enough and that I was wanted and then you LEFT. I just broke up with someone because I wasn't over you. I have never been so angry with someone in my entire life as I am with you right now. What does she have for you that I do not? Get out of my life. Do not join my university club. Don't expect me at yours. Don't call, don't text, don't snap, don't come to see me at work, stop helping me with my writing. Stop. Get out of my life. -Em

 Break someone’s heart And yours will be broken too.  -Emma Lancaster

 It’s hard to tell my story When my story Is the compilation  Of a thousand Others.  -Emma Lancaster

 If you wanted her, why didn't you do something about it sooner? -Emma Lancaster

  In Carolina; Where the city meets the country   And the sun turns they sky A blazing shade of orange And laying on the floor Is everything you need.  -Emma Lancaster 

 It is so freeing To be sitting on a bus With a whole day ahead, Headed for an airport  That will take me somewhere new.  I remember this feeling From trips past; The freedom of choice. -Emma Lancaster

 Maybe relationships will stop falling apart if I stop looking at the stars.  Just think of the symbolism between two people looking at something unreachable together. Maybe they were all doomed from the start. Reach for the stars, but why would I reach for something too good to be true? -Emma Lancaster

 It is easier to write about love that I have lost when there is a new love to fill the holes of the memories poured from my thoughts  onto a page. -Emma Lancaster

 I love the idea of being swept off my feet in both the literal and metaphorical senses.  I've been literally swept off my feet a few times. My favorite time was when we were walking through the parking lot and I was a few paces ahead. He took a few strides to catch up to me and scooped me up in his arms in one smooth motion. I giggled and told him to put me down. I kicked my feet in protest, but I was secretly happy to be carried around. As we neared the edge of the parking lot, I noticed one of my friends approaching and told him that I knew her. Immediately, he turned his attention to my friend and told my friend that I was drunk. I wasn't even close to drunk. I immediately started protesting and she just looked at us like we were goofy. I laughed even harder and tried to get him to stop talking and put me down, but he held me tight and carried me through the parking lot and across the street. I was happy just to be with him. It's become one of those untouchable memories