Writing from the Past (Part 2)

 8/13/18   

Except things aren't different, and nothing is ok. I feel so alone, because it's not ok and it won't be ok. I'm alone. I wish things were different. I hate how this is. I hate that this is how it has to be. I'm so alone, and I'm scared. I'm so scared. It's a constant pang of fear. I'm paralyzed by all of the what-ifs and thoughts. I am scared. I am alone. I need you. I'm not allowed to need you.

-Emma Lancaster

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